Daughter : i have a question.. something regarding "girls" stuff? should i explain it.. err u do understand, don't u ayah?

Ayah : i heard a lot from your mother.. let me share you  a story of Prophet Musa a.s. Referring to surah Al-Qasas : 24-27. 

And when he arrived at the water of Madyan (Midian) he found there a group of men watering (their flocks), and besides them he found two women who were keeping back (their flocks). He said: "What is the matter with you?" They said: "We cannot water (our flocks) until the shepherds take (their flocks). And our father is a very old man." (23) So he watered (their flocks) for them, then he turned back to shade, and said: "My Lord! truly, I am in need of whatever good that You bestow on me!" (24) Then there came to him one of the two women, walking shyly. She said: "Verily, my father calls you that he may reward you for having watered (our flocks) for us." So when he came to him and narrated the story, he said: "Fear you not. You have escaped from the people who are Zâlimûn (polytheists, disbelievers, and wrong-doers)." (25)And said one of them (the two women): "O my father! Hire him! Verily, the best of men for you to hire is the strong, the trustworthy." (26) He said: "I intend to wed one of these two daughters of mine to you, on condition that you serve me for eight years, but if you complete ten years, it will be (a favour) from you. But I intend not to place you under a difficulty. If Allâh wills, you will find me one of the righteous." (27)

So my dear, being keen on getting to know someone you like is not the proper way. If you like some one, make du'a and let Allah guide him for you. Take good care of your Iman and put all your trust to Allah. My dear, you have nothing to lose. 

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Thinking of how life was before... how frustrating it was.. a kind reminder whisper my ears " My love, Forgive yourself... Be mindful of Allah, Allah will protect you..Hold on of your iman, don't give it to Shaitaan..  Every breath we take is a chance of taubah and a chance of Jannah.. Allah promise He will forgive His servant.. no matter what have you done, hold on..."